As reminded by M, I haven’t been on tumblr for quite some while.

Today’s been a particularly exhausting day (and it was already exhausting at 12pm, so you can see how horrible it has been since then)

So thoughts, thoughts.

Sometimes I seem to be filled with them, and others time I’m just a jellyfish, floating around, aimless. (wait, am I degrading jellyfish to brainless, spineless, thoughtless creatures? well, I love them anyways.)

So, thoughts on turning 18 soon.

I have a feeling it’s gonna be anticlimatic.

but for what it’s worth, I’m going to make the best out of it. 

I decided that as a present to myself, I’m gonna commit some self-empowering acts.

like, say, erm. 

Getting my ears pierced. HAHA. Hey, it’s body-changing thus life changing ok?

Besides that, I don’t really have plans.

I mean a while ago, my mom was like, so you wanna have a party for your birthday?

and I’m like. err, iono, we’ll see. 

See, if I was turning 16 (back in the day), I woulda been HELLLLL YEAH~

but yeah, so obviously you can see how much I’ve grown right? 

But still, I love presents, I don’t really like the gift itself, but rather, the excitement of what IT MIGHT BE.

When you don’t know about something, the possibilities are ENDLESS. 

But there are exceptions, I’m a super picky person in general (I didn’t say this myself, people did) and one time for christmas I got an ugly sweater, and I HATED IT. I’m an unappreciative bitch. yes. 

But sometimes when people get me stuff that I’ve wanted foreverrrrr or something they just KNOW is me. I get soooooo excited.

so, N gave me an early bday prez back in april? march? and it was AWESOME. I couldn’t be more thankful. She got be this nautical like sailor rope trying framed thing that I MYSELF WAS GOING TO GET. but the one i found was bad quality and didn’t look that great. so I didn’t get it. and wonders of wonders, the moment she handed her present to me. I was just, so, so speechless!

I love it when people presents show how much they know you. It really is the thought they put into buying it. Even if it was a cheap headband, I would love it to pieces. 

I’m into so many things, sometimes I think I should be easy to satisfy

but I get disappointed sometimes me I get things like lotions, which i KNOW aren’t bought for me. not that I dont like it.. it’s just. I’m not a lotion person… 

Even if someone got me a poster of a painting I love, or a book I’ve been wanting to read. Anything to do with Photography, anything to do with fashion (hand me down old magazines are cool, ok?) 

and actually I’m a huge superfan of giftcards. it’s like hey, there’s my gift to you: SHOPPING! and enjoying it without a guilty conscience of spending too much money!

the best thing is when you get it from your favorite stores. I HELLA appreciate giftcards, at least the person to gave it to you had enough sense in them to know which stores you like and not give you some random thing they found around their house (i.e. old unopened candles, lotions someone else gave them, etc)

I think jaime once asked me, if you could get 500 gift card to anywhere, where would you want it to be? i mean URBAN? HELLO? their stuff is EXPENSIVE, so it’ll make sense. plus they sell stuff like furniture! and LOMO CAMERAS. it’s called a wide range. 

haha if i could get like a 5 dollar, 10 dollar, any amount give card, urban would be awesome. since i mean forever, i can afford. but sometimes urban, its a debate! 

But anything handmade is the love. Letters, cards, little comic books (i’ve received this ONCE! I still have it till today, the other day I found it while organizing my room, hecka nostalgic)

How did I randomly come to the topic of presents? I guess the kid in me still hasn’t lost her childlike wonder. My love for surprises. 

As I trudge through the night, with my seemingly never decreasing pile of work, I hope that same childlike wonder can keep me sane.